10dpiui

I woke up before my alarm this morning and lay in bed for a while, feeling completely Not Pregnant and delaying the moment when I got up to take the test that I knew would be negative.

And it was.

I have a lot more to say on the subject but I am just. so. angry at the world and sad and I can't focus enough to say what I want to say and I have to go do some bullshit work at my bullshit job and all I want to do is crawl under the covers and cry.

(Yes, I know things could still change blah blah earlycakes and if I end up being wrong and pregnant after all we will all have a good laugh. But I am pretty sure that this is over.)