All systems go
Anyway, just got the call from the nurse and everything looks good. FSH=7, which is great (though I had to look it up online to double check--time was I would have known off the top of my head). Start Clomid tonight, back next Saturday (day 12) for u/s and if we have the right number of follicles (1) in the right place (right side) they'll give me the trigger shot right then and there, and IUI next day.
I've been freaking out (A LOT) about this whole second child concept ever since we had the consult with Dr. SF. So much so that I was getting ready to say to my husband that maybe we should just call the whole thing off, that maybe I didn't want another child after all. Then I realized that what's really freaking me out are (a) thought of being pregnant and on bedrest and terrified again, (b) thought of having another newborn and attendant horrors again, and (c) financial worries. When I think about actually having two slightly-more-grown children--teenagers, school-age, even having one toddler and one school-age child--that actually sounds wonderful to me. (Those of you currently in hell because of one toddler and one school-age child, just smile and tell me I'm right.)
So I've been bucking myself up by trying to think of GOOD things about being pregnant and having a newborn (not many, but they do exist--I think) and also by addressing my fears logically. (a) I may not have any problems with a second pregnancy--perhaps my ute has stretched and won't give me grief again. (b) If I have another kid, I'll be more prepared for the psychological fallout of having a newborn, and will cut myself way more slack on the breastfeeding/pumping thing especially (i.e. will not make myself crazy over it). (c) No good solutions here, but people have 2 kids on a lot less money than what we have and survive. It will be fine.
Oh, btw, those of you who know me in real life (or at least on FB or Twitter)--I'm not "out" about trying for #2, so please don't make reference to this or to IF on FB or Twitter or anywhere else my non-blog-reading peeps might see. Not that you would, anyway, but just in case. Kthxbai!