Thursday, July 06, 2006

Perfect

This morning is cold and rainy and dismal. But I could not possibly be happier.

I was pretty anxious about today's ultrasound. I knew this was it--either we would see a heartbeat and things would be good, or we wouldn't and things would be very, very bad. I couldn't fall asleep last night and I tossed and turned for hours.

But as soon as the wand went in and Dr. SF zoomed in on the embryo/fetus/fetbryo (tm Julia), he said, "I see the heartbeat." Now, I will be honest with you all and admit that I myself did not see an actual flickering heartbeat, and when I asked my husband later, he admitted he didn't, either. (I did see a sort of blurriness in the middle of the fetbryo, that was all.) But Dr. SF turned on the sound and we heard the glorious whoosh whoosh whoosh and saw the sound waves like mountains across the screen, and yes, I teared up a little. 170 bpm.

When we zoomed in a little more, we could make out the head and the umbilical cord (I think). Baby is measuring 7w6d. Perfect perfect. I thought I was actually 7w4d today, counting from the date of my IUI, but Dr. SF said at this clinic they actually count the date of hCG trigger as 2w, so that would make me 7w6d. Whatever--I can't keep all the calculations straight. Either way, the measurement is beautiful.

Dr. SF also said I can stop taking the metformin. I'm a little nervous about that--since I haven't been on any progesterone supplementation, met has been my talisman throughout these early weeks. Also, I finally got back to pooping normally after weeks of crippling constipation, so I'm not sure how my system will respond. I might taper myself off it gradually. I asked if I should start taking it again if I want to TTC in the future, and Dr. SF said yes, whenever I'm done nursing, I can go back on it. He said to wait a few months to see if I ovulate on my own (ha!) and then come back if I don't.

So, I'm officially booted from the RE. First OB appointment is Monday. Yes, I tempted fate and made the appointment before I saw a heartbeat. I just couldn't stand the thought of having to wait two or three more weeks without any medical reassurance. Also, I expect she'll want to refer me to a high-risk specialist for extra monitoring, and I'd like to get that figured out as soon as possible.

After much agonizing and hand-wringing and lengthy consultation (translation: whining and obsessively detailed emails) with my husband (who was no help) and some very patient ladies, I decided to go back to the ob/gyn I was seeing before I got on the infertility rollercoaster. I had initially picked her because of her very patient-centered, low-intervention approach to childbirth, but because of the whole wonky uterus thing, I didn't think low-intervention was in the cards for me, and I wondered if I should just find an OB affiliated with the hospital nearest my apartment, which is known for its top NICU and high-risk-pregnancy program. But Dr. SF said that pretty much any hospital here in Big City would be good, and warned me that the high-risk group at this other hospital was so huge that I'd probably never see the same doctor twice. So I'm going back to my old ob/gyn, figuring that even if I end up having to have a scheduled C-section, a woman-centered, patient-empowering doctor is never a bad thing.

*****

Quick symptom run-down before I go stare at the US picture some more: Bloating has gone way down, thank goodness. I still can't button most of my pants, but I no longer look pregnant, and I can no longer feel my right ovary when I lie down and run my hand over my abdomen, so that's a good thing. However, as the bloating has decreased, nausea has risen up to take its place. No vomiting--yet--just a constant low-level pukey feeling. If it never gets worse than this, I'll be fine. (But I'm not counting on it--my mom said when she was pregnant with me, her morning sickness kicked in after about two months. Assuming she's remembering correctly from 32 years ago.)

*****
After Dr. SF left the exam room and while I was getting dressed, my husband kept staring at the screen, where the close-up of the fetbryo was frozen. "That's the head," he finally said, wonderingly. And then, affectionately, "My little alien baby."

12 Comments:

Anonymous Alexa said...

Perfect indeed. I am so happy for you--I had been holding my breath, I think!

9:54 AM  
Anonymous Molly said...

Hooray! Oh, how I love good news.

And your husband sounds like a keeper.

10:10 AM  
Blogger Thalia said...

Congrats, EL, this is lovely news. I hope you and your husband are still basking in it.

10:37 AM  
Anonymous J said...

I have been waiting for this update... I'm so happy to know that things are going so well!

10:41 AM  
Blogger MoMo said...

Congratulations...I am so happy for you guys. Hearing that hearbeat is something else isn't it? Take care!

11:10 AM  
Blogger Alli said...

That is amazing. I am so happy for you guys!

12:09 PM  
Blogger Robber Barren said...

Oh, EL, that is just wonderful, wonderful, wonderful!!

The measurements at this stage have a margin of error of +/- 3 days, I think, and anyway a wee bit big is okay. So (and you know this already) you are totally 100% on track. Keep blipping away, little fetbryo heart!

And congrats on making an OB/gyn decision!

2:07 PM  
Blogger Ornery said...

What a wonderful, amazing post. Hearing the heartbeat for the first time is pretty spectacular, isn't it? The memory of the first time I heard the heartbeat still makes me feel a little giddy!

Also, I completely understand your concerns about getting off met. When I finished my last pussy pop, I was a bit freaked out because now there was nothing for me to do to help the pregnancy along. But after a few days, it actually felt pretty liberating not to have to deal with the meds. I'm sure you'll feel the same way, too. Congrats for making it this far!

7:23 PM  
Anonymous Watson said...

Phew! What great, exciting, wonderful news!

To say 'what a relief' must be a huge understatement :-)

7:47 PM  
Blogger Amy said...

What great news! I was a wreck before my first ultrasound too. I'm so glad that the baby looks good and that it had a strong heartbeat. I hope your first OB appointment goes well.

12:15 AM  
Anonymous Kath said...

Dear Electriclady, that is wonderful, wonderful news! So excited for you, my dear.

2:06 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

Wow!! I'm so glad to hear that everything went well!!

2:45 PM  

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