I'm finding the shots somewhat challenging--there is a big difference between doing one little 29g shot with a pen, and doing three shots, two of which are now 27g needles and one of which needs to be mixed. My skin is unusually sensitive, too--normally I have problems getting the needle in but then everything is fine; once I added the Ganirelix and Menopur I've started getting little welts at the injection sites and big red patches all around. But I'm powering through.
I'm still terrified of the PIO shots. I got the nurses to write me a prescription for EMLA cream to help. The nurse I spoke to on Monday said, "You know it'll just numb the surface, right? You'll still feel the injection going into the muscle." But it's exactly the sensation of that thick needle punching through the skin that I'm freaked out about.
The nurse had to run and check with my doctor to make sure it was OK for me to get the Rx, and when she came back she said, "OK, we can write you the prescription, but just so you know, Dr. SF thinks you can TOTALLY handle it." A nice vote of confidence, except that I very clearly heard him say in the hallway, "That's just stupid." Meaning, I guess, my desire to numb the pain, assuming he was talking about me and not, say, a malfunctioning pen or his shoelace coming untied. Thanks a lot, doc. I was pissed, and upset, obviously, but didn't really know how to handle it. (Clearly I should have said to the nurse, "Did he SERIOUSLY just say 'That's stupid'???") I told my husband later and he said, "Well, we always knew that niceness was on the surface for him."
Whatever. Honestly, it doesn't really change anything. I got my numbing cream, my doctor is still excellent at the medical stuff regardless of how arrogant he is (and I've always known he is). I don't care if he thinks I'm being silly as long as he treats me with respect and gets the job done. But I am still pissed.